Many thanks to everyone who has expressed their congratulations and well wishes. Boaz and I are recovering well, enjoying this special time of him being a tiny newborn. The family is adjusting with relative ease. Stephen of course looks like a giant toddler by comparison now. He is rather thrilled about no longer being the "baby", and absolutely delights in being all over Boaz, pulling back his blanket, patting his head, and the like.
As much as I don't like to talk about it, the fact remains that this was a twin pregnancy. I know many of you are wondering, or have asked, about the other baby.
(Trigger warning - post contains image of a stillborn baby's hands)
Jachin Thomas Anderson was born first, at 7:33 am on Tuesday, May 6, weighing in just a tad above 2 ounces, and measuring 6 inches in length. I birthed him into my hands in the tub. Before going into labor, based on the last ultrasound, we did not know what to expect because he was not visible during that exam. During labor, however, when my midwife checked me, she could feel him, and that he was presenting first.
His body was tiny - it perfectly filled the palm of my hand - but in very good condition. He certainly was very recognizable, with all his features. Even the tone of his skin was very natural. Considering that he had passed away four moths before birth, about half-way through the pregnancy, this was equally amazing and unlikely. I am thankful that we were able to "meet" his earthly self in a peaceful, dignified manner, in the quiet privacy of our own home. Following the advice I had read and been given regarding sibling loss, we gave the older children the option to see Jachin if they wanted (they all did).
I had made all the necessary phone calls and arrangements for burial, should it become necessary, months earlier, so all I needed to do following the birth was to contact everyone and let them know the time had come.
We buried Jachin on Thursday, May 8th, at 10 am in a brief, private ceremony at a small cemetery I had picked out. The only people in attendance were our family of ten, Grandma, and my midwife. The latter two had been there all along the way through the surgeries, the loss, and right up through the birth.
Naturally, the events this week were all very emotionally charged. While we took many photos of everything, as well as a video of the burial, these are for our own private use only, and not intended for the public eye.
We are thanking and praising God for bringing us through this trial with a healthy baby boy to call our own, and another one to share eternity with someday. While I am deeply grieved by the loss, I am also thankful for everything that has turned out so well in spite of the odds, and thankful for Jachin's brief life, knowing one day we will see him again.
For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. ~ I Thessalonians 4:14